looking back...

I've been in several relationships already. Some lasting for weeks, most for several months. Yes, none lasted for a year. All the same, I consider them serious. Though the times spent aren't even considered a relationship by many, I based it on the emotions drawn and the things I've learned. Not only to the relationship per se, but also about myself.

Of all these relationships, only three stood out. Not because of what I've felt for them, but what I came to know of relationships. First, with a Fubu who turned to be my bf. Yes he was the one who taught me the game. That no matter how serious you become, you can't expect your partner to be the same. Too bad that when he was ready and serious, I was on the verge of mastering it. We broke up 2 weeks after our 6th month. Second was with this guy I've met over wap. He taught me not to underestimate people. But I can also win challenges. Such as winning his heart. Too bad that no matter how emotionally compatible we were, sexual compatibility is also important. We were pure top then, and it occurred to me that such won't work long-term. Lastly, with this guy from G4M whom I was ignoring "daw" for a long time. But when we met, turned out my ideal guy: maputi, chinito, kalbo (sa pic nya). And yes he was short, just my typical partner. Everything started a blur. 1 week proposal na, 2nd week honeymoon sa Baguio, 3rd week divorce. LOL. Joking around, this relationship let me experience real life problems which helped our relationship grow stronger. That I thought of. But I've learned, the hard way, that no matter how strong the foundation is, friendship can ruin the relationship. Especially when it involves someone whom you treated as a brother. We tried saving what was left but it was only good for the next couple of months. I broke up with him after about 6 months, just days after him introducing me to his family. Up to now though, he was still what I consider "the one that got away". These relationships taught me so many things. That happy endings only happen in fairy tales and on porn movies. That 2 tops (or in some cases 2 bottoms) can't attract each other long term with monogamy. And that no matter how much emotions, time, effort, and love you give, for some this is just a game. So if you are with someone right now, hold on to your man tightly, coz you'll never now, he might be one of the three. Kidding aside, enjoy your time together. Don't hold back coz only then that you can really say that you've fallen in love. I should know, coz I did...then. I'm better by myself though. Bitterness aside. =) Seriously speaking though, I only have one regret of not being in a relationship. You know the feeling of having sleepless nights thinking if your partner is at home? Or what has he been doing lately when he's not texting? Or having to go at his home secretly checking if he's indeed there? Yes the Dick Tracy type! That I really miss. One of the things I'm pretty good at. Makes me want to have one right this very moment! LOL Anyways, my iPhone's batt is running low. And it's pretty hard typing on this small screen. Have to get sleeping or I'll be late again! Til my next tirade! Budtrip loggin off...